decisions, decisions, oh the artistic decisions...

Oh I'm in a rut. I just don't know what to do. I want to create some sort of spring collection of artwork, whether it be abstracts or realism. Abstracts hand me over such battles. They are difficult - they are harder creating than one would think, and I find myself stumped and looking at other current abstract artists who are my age, and a lot more successful and extremely talented and I admit, I find myself becoming very discouraged. Sometimes when I compare my abstract work to other artists I feel very amateur. But I am a fine artists - I have a degree, I have studied with an emphasis in painting all through high school and college so I shouldn't feel defeated. It's just hard is all.

I don't have the most legit website for my artwork, I don't have a .com and since the move to Los Angeles I am now in search of a printing company to help myself produce prints and giclees of my artwork so that I can always have artwork available for purchase. But it's money. I probably shouldn't be publicly writing my doubts within my own work, as it's far from professional, but I'm real and majority of the time, I like to throw my hands in the air because I don't care.

As of late, I have been questioning if I should focus on my butterfly paintings and take a breather from the abstracts. I have a great audience who love the butterflies and I can continue with this collection and go forward with it. It would be perfect for spring and summer and I do find a joy while painting them. So, I'm going to continue to think about it a bit, but that is where I am at. I just need to focus on one thing at a time and stop looking at other artists work, unless they are my favorite master painters. I need to find my niche because I'm all over the map. And.... I need a vacation.